Childhood Abuse and Depersonalization Disorder

By Sherri L. Board

Depersonalization is a disorder in which one feels, among other symptoms, as though they are an outside observer of their own life. Indeed, one feels as though they are living outside of their own body.

I have felt this way all my life. Not until very recently did I realize that feeling this way is not normal. As a result of being severely abused as a child, anytime another human being would come around me I would literally leave my body. And so I based my life on the needs of others.

Even though I had gone along this way for many decades, there was something inside of me that let me know I was not fulfilling God’s purpose for my life. I would feel anger at myself for not having the strength to take care of my own life’s purpose. In all His love, God spoke to me through my anger.

One day, I decided I didn’t want to live this way anymore and began to say “no” to people’s expectations of me and “yes” to God’s will for my life.

No one has the right to prevent you from fulfilling your life’s purpose; not even you.